My Top Five Biggest Fears – Then and Now
My favorite holiday is Halloween! I don’t like horror movies, I don’t like blood, and I don’t like the idea of ghosts, but I love the holiday because I love dressing up in a costume and carving pumpkins! I do enjoy a little scare- like kid friendly haunted houses and Tales from the Crypt, but all this excitement of the upcoming holiday had me reminiscing about my fears as a child but also what I fear now.
As a child, my top five fears were-
- Zeke The Plumber. I was a ninety’s child and grew up watching Snick at Night on Nikelodeon, it was the best! My dad would make my brother and I popcorn and it was a serious Saturday night ritual. One of my favorite shows on Nikelodeon was Salut Your Shorts, and for a halloween themed episode, the campers told the ghost story of Zeke The Plumber…da da dooohhh. One of the campers, Budnick, tells the tale of Zeke the Custodian, a long-dead nose-less custodian who haunts Camp Anawanna. He wears a scary mask- see above- and comes into your bunk and sucks out your brains with his plunger. I reread the episode plot and now it says secrets, but as a kid, I thought it was brains and it scared the crap out of me, and I didn’t sleep well for weeks.
- The Haunted House at the Minnesota State Fair. I was a bit too young when my parents took me in the haunted house. I freaked out, started crying, and was carried out in my mom’s arms. Fifteen years later, my mom and I reentered the haunted house together and I ended up laughing more than feeling at all fearful.
- Maniac Mansion for PC. I would go over to my friend’s house and watch her play this point and click late eighties video game. You play a bunch of teenagers who infiltrate a mad scientist’s mansion to find a friend who has been kidnapped. The mad scientist’s family would be searching for you, and I would get so nervous and afraid watching her play, it gave me anxiety. I was too afraid to play myself, so I would sit next to her and cringe the entire time.
- The vanity in my room. It was so beautiful and when my mom moved it in, I loved it! I would sit at the stool and brush my hair, put on “makeup” and be a pretty little princess. Then one night, I had a terrible dream where I woke up and a lady was in the mirror of my vanity. She came out of it, approached my bed, and I don’t want to relive this dream anymore. Whenever I slept facing the vanity after that night, I would have terrible nightmares. Even more scary now, my aunt, who lived in my room when she was a girl, told me she believed there was a lady that lived in the wall and would love bad nightmares too. She’s either messing with me, or it’s really creepy.
- The Brave Little Toaster. In this movie, objects come to life. The air conditioner was so scary, and the metal magnet that tries to melt them, ohhhhh. Such a weird plot, a guy who is obsessed with his toaster and objects, check it out.
Present day fears
- Failure. As a wedding photographer, my greatest fear is that I’m going to make a huge mistake and loose someone’s images, show up at the wrong venue, loose a memory card, or do something to ruin my client’s experience and my career. I live in fear of this everyday and am always working to make peace with the idea that I am hyper organized and anal for a good reason when it comes to wedding.
- The state of the world and the upcoming election. So much negativity, so much sadness today, I try and send metta and good energy to all those suffering. I hope we can band together and make the world a better, safer place.
- Health insurance. I don’t know what is going on right now, but for some reason the United States has stopped providing individuals with health plans that provide adequate coverage. Next year, my plan is going up $100/month, $1000 more for my deductible and I can’t even see my doctor. Sweet. It scares me to think I’m going to be paying more than I ever have a month for no coverage and if I get injured, I will go bankrupt.
- Teenagers and Dubstep music. Enough said.
- Getting old. Friends start to drift apart, life starts to change, I have a few wrinkles on my forehead, this is scary, and it will not stop, so I’m dealing with it.
What did you fear as a kid? I’m curious to know!
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